Elucidating Questions

And alcohol will be my new best friend

Because no one else showed and I’m too tired to play pretend.

Can’t pretend everything is fine when I feel like I’m drowning in every second

Alone with myself if I feed it maybe it’ll be nice to me for a moment

Just a moment where it doesn’t hurt like this anymore

And if no one showed then it’s my own fault I wasn’t specific enough about the Salton or Troy.

Or maybe no one was coming anyways

I wanted you to read my poetry and see my pain but see how much love I have and I wanted to sit around and do nothing and watch you play or watch you playing

And let what happened before just melt away but it never happened it never happened that way

So I must be the biggest mistake.

Making historical mistakes.

Don’t come with me don’t follow me don’t do as I do because no one else deserves how I feel but me

Don’t think someone can love you

Don’t believe you’re worth their time

Don’t ever trust that voice in your head that said it would work if you just tried

Because it’s not true.

Don’t shoot for the stars or act like today is your last day

Don’t believe in anything

Don’t ever want what you can’t have and then imagine what it would be like to have it

You’ll find you hate yourself the more you realise

Nothing is true.

And then we all die.