Elucidating Questions

It’s time to stop pretending that I’ll have someone take my hand

Time to look to the future I want.

The one where I’m not there.

Dreaming of the perfect moment.

Look to the end and pray it comes soon.

It’s time to stop dreaming about how they’ll see me.

It’s time to stop dreaming about happiness that is not coming.

It’s time to give up on hoping and happiness and accept the answer.

It’s time to stop making promises that don’t benefit anyone.

I’m waiting.

Dreaming of the sweet ending.

I don’t want anything else.

I give up searching for nothing

Not here

Not there

I give up trying to pretend that feeling love made it better.

Someday I won’t have to stay here

Someday I’ll be free.

Someday I’ll be able to do all the things I only dreamed it just has to end first

I just have to wait

I just have to be patient

Wait my turn in line.

Someday he’ll pick me and I’ll be free.