Elucidating Questions

Ativan is my new best friend.

Take away the pain and let me hide it under numbness and silence.

Take away the pain of being ignored and unimportant.

Take away the pain of being lonely and forgotten.

Join together with the plant and take it all away.

I can’t do this alone

I can’t do anything.

Worthless useless awful disgusting person

I’m not worth having him either.

I keep thinking

Something

It’s not making me any better to love people

Love makes it hurt

It doesn’t make me kind it makes me scared.

I can be kind through the numbness I don’t need to love anyone else.

Take it away.

I’m tired of loving people.