Elucidating Questions

I’ve never had a muse that was a person what do I do what if I hurt him

I think thought think.

But it’s everywhere and I only like it here where I know every sound

Except that one

I don’t usually find new pieces to the pieces

I was upset but when I pressed play it felt a little better

Like I forgot I was listening.

A nice surprise.

Like replaying a game over and over.

I don’t remember what happened.

I’ve started hearing you in my head when I’m slipping

Face the

Well that thing I never get far from

It’s bad and I don’t know how to fix it

I’m telling you how hard it is to find hope in a life where I don’t exist in my own world.

At least I got to hear the words I never heard and I could believe them because I don’t think my face was the same.

There’s no way it was.

So I woke up twice and the alarm went off and went off and went off and I just don’t know what it was for

I was ready to turn back and keep living in nothing because no one here wanted me but then I thought about it.

Three crows fly but I have ravens now on the hill

I forgot the colour of your hair.

It wasn’t supposed to be about you.

Surprise.

I wish I could continue backwards

Go back to the years I could climb a tree and not feel it the next day or work without it leading to doctors and tests.

I wanted to but I don’t think I can.

The words I want to say.

Because I’m afraid he’ll hate them or think I’m trying to pull on strings.

I just wish I could love him unabashedly without this constant weight

I wish someone would see my love and believe me.

Wish wish wish.

The damn well must be so full of coins by now it can buy its own.

If I think about tomorrow then I’ll be disappointed when I’m right.

To the spinning one who wants to land it

Good luck and 頑張って

Because I want to see you

And have that moment again in real life.