Elucidating Questions

In the misty night as the clouds start to fall from the sky

And the three silent pauses that hang on too long.

Wanting to know what words it hid or if it was anything worth thinking about but the night is too tiring.

Broken wings that don’t work right.

The pain I try to hide while trying to express the pain.

How many times to get back to square one again.

It doesn’t matter how long you say it or how loudly I still only see you.

I still only want you.

I still only come to the end of each day wishing I’d done it right this time.

I know it’s not you that’s stuck on repeat.

I know I’m just one of millions who love you and my being in love with you doesn’t change that it’s not original or new or different

Just one more.

This just happened to be the song that played.

I gave up on the possibility to even start at all.

With anything.

I don’t know why I do it I just can’t stop so I just happens.

I told you I stand in line and repeat the same thing they all say.

Look at the parrot.

I guess.

Incidentally I don’t have my own words.

I should be prepared, but I’m not.

I’m still going to be alone so I suppose I can have him if he’s offering.

Or have no one ever again.

Some sort of answer to know where to go from here.

Sometimes the fog is so thick even the pain feels far away.

Mostly it just hurts.

Mostly every second of ever day hurts unless I’m half asleep.

Everything is throw away in a second

If I could just see him.