Elucidating Questions

I didn’t try hard enough.

Walking smack into a wall of silence.

I did it to myself why can’t I just undo it no one ever said he knows.

Didn’t try hard enough to get past the wall.

Not good enough.

Didn’t try hard enough to be good.

Wasn’t ever going to be right that was part of the joke.

I forgot my life is a joke. I forgot and believed for a second twisted second that I could be anything else other than a punchline.

I didn’t write sweet words I wrote something not worth seeing. I can’t do it right because I’m nothing more than a failure who didn’t try hard enough.

To my past self a sneer and a scoff

Are you fucking kidding me?

You thought that would work?

Fucking idiot.

Stupid fucking idiot.

You forgot to look in the mirror before deciding you were right for him.