Elucidating Questions

I miss you.

I know I never met you but I saw you and I’ve missed you every day since

I’ve missed you. Am I allowed to miss you am I allowed to see you

No of course not what a stupid question a stupid question I’m sorry.

I ask stupid questions.

I still miss you.

I know you can find someone better than me, I know you don’t want me because of the entire alphabet

I know I never got a chance I didn’t deserve.

I see only the veil, pulled over everything I wish I had a sharp object to cut through it like something that would reach you other than words said thousands of times a day by thousands of girls much prettier and more than me.

But what would happen? I’m not worth it, I knew that much that’s why I’m wrong. I could never be meant for you you deserve so much better than me.

I still miss you. I still know where you are but isn’t that just obviously you’re in the same general fucking direction.

The music is tearing me apart I feel like everything is my fault again I still don’t know what I did.

I wish I could tell you and have you believe me.

I love you.

What a stupid thing to say.

It hurts like I’m being cut from the inside.

I think it’s karma.