Elucidating Questions

Exhaustion kicks in and I don’t know if I’m losing it because I have myself tied in knots

Or if it’s just exhaustion.

If it’s too much then why doesn’t it just go away?

Wouldn’t it be nice if I could wake up without a care in the world

Wouldn’t it be nice if I could wake up next to someone.

Instead I’ll be by myself.

Someone tell me how to fill the hole I bore into my own heart

I need mine.

I lied when I said I didn’t I was trying to seem strong and it tore me apart but it never mattered anyways.

Feeling so sick and tired.

Everything hurts.

I get one breath and the exhale is all about him

The next breath is the ocean

And then I sink all over again.