Elucidating Questions

He wants to know why he feels so powerless,

Why everything he does just goes through dead eyes and why his whispers can’t be heard,

I try to think it’s because he’s not there,

But his presence hits me hard often.

And if I listened to him I’d probably feel better about myself

But then what?

A thing that can’t be proven,

Unless you spend time around me and start seeing him everywhere too.

Annoyed I ask why he stays here but

His answers are always in the shape of someone else’s words.

I miss him so I think of him I don’t feel like it’s okay for me to have even a piece of him but

Stubborn and stuck to me.

Stubborn and I feel like maybe I’m not wrong about it,

But then I feel guilty.

It’s these thoughts I can’t sort away, I’ve tried hard to.

The moon is clear,

But I still feel lost.

I don’t think it will ever get better if I can’t even trust myself to keep away.