Elucidating Questions

The love is buried so far beneath like do I start with how I agonised about it

How I can’t stop worrying and don’t know why all over again

By complete coincidence I think of the night by seeing it

How panicked I was for no reason

How hard it was to sleep

But it was just one of those things, those cracks I wasn’t supposed to show.

Now I worry, but it doesn’t get me anywhere and I’m not trying to make mistakes

I just don’t know why I feel the need to do it,

But I did so I gave in apparently.

Blame it on the drink, but I managed for days without making a word toward where I wanted it to go so

I don’t know what changed.

I’m so tired.

I just want to know you’re safe.

It’s all I care about these days.