Elucidating Questions

I couldn’t

Wouldn’t

Never could give up that place for anyone else,

The one place where I feel at home.

Even when homesick the feeling like

But that’s okay.

You’ll be okay.

In an instant I gave it all up and decided I didn’t need it

But you know if there’s no you,

Then I don’t want to stay here.

There’s nothing keeping me here, at least there I can pretend I’m where I belong.

There’s nowhere here I feel like I belong, like I’m coming home.

That place was nice but it’s not mine, it’s yours.

I hate this place.

I thought I could learn to love it,

But the culture shock

The trampling on who I’m supposed to be

Daily.

All I ever wonder is why people are like this.

Without a thought I can slip back in

It feels like I’m reaching for somewhere I can’t get to

If I was there

I’d be able to live

But because I’m here I can’t.

I don’t think anyone can know the feeling

Of giving up on the place you were taught to love because

There’s no reason

But giving up

Because it doesn’t love you back.

It doesn’t matter who I pour it out to,

I’m leaving.

I’ve decided it.

Now everything is on fire.

Coincidences.

If you want to burn your homes down, and stick your head in the sand and pretend this is weather

While creating acid rain for the rest of the world

Be my guest.

Goodbye

A box I never wanted to be born in anyways.