Elucidating Questions

I’m not perfect

I can’t take back anything I did

I tried to do something that I don’t even know

There’s no reason in this box I got locked in I checked.

I had to take it apart after all.

Sometimes I think

I must have put you through so much pain

I do that apparently

Put people through pain

It doesn’t matter who I try to be or how many times I try to start over

I’m this same terrible person

And the reason

Is that the person who raised me

Apparently did a damn good job of it

Ruining everything I was going to be

I’m going to blame the fuck out of him because

Every time I think I’ve come to the end

Every time I thought surely this time I would come across right

Silence comes back

And in the fear I just bite.

No one makes excuses for me,

Even from others.

I’m not going to offer up any

I don’t have any.

I expected everything of you

That was wrong of me I just I’m so lonely

I’m so scared

I don’t know what to do and I thought

Wouldn’t it be nice if

Someone wanted to fight for me

When I couldn’t

It was cruel of me

I’m sorry.