Elucidating Questions

I was born to be yours you just weren’t born to be mine

It’s not black and white

It’s a joke.

There’s no answer for me,

Nothing to hold on to or for

I was born to be yours

How unfortunate.

I’m sorry this happened to you.

There are sirens here and there

Who knows why it is.

I must have done something to deserve this.

I don’t see any light but yours

Every day even without anything

Nothing

Unprompted back into my mind

Shining and being so bright and it’s like

I’ll never even measure up to half of it

Even if I just decided to be you

I’d still be in this mess it’s still my life that gets lived

I’m not even a quarter.

There are more than me every day

I can’t handle the truth.

So I’m going back to sleep.

Wake me when the nightmare is over

Before then leave me to drown.

I have nothing to live for

If not you

And I still don’t know why

I have to see you in my dreams every night

Because it hurts

And then I wake up

And it hurts.

I’m not mad at it I just want to know what I did.

And then your song comes on and I wonder

As it doesn’t run red,

I’m trying so fucking hard not to let it

And maybe I was just feeling it because the song was coming.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

I don’t like it.

Any of it, what I did.

Anything at all.

So I’ll shoulder it

And go ahead with whatever I was doing

Do you have anything else?

It doesn’t matter.

I love you.

I don’t have anything else left.