Elucidating Questions

It gets to the point where even buying something to treat yourself

Becomes out of reach you

Look at the price tag and sigh because

You wish you had the freedom,

You wish you could wear what you want.

You think having that thing would make you feel a bit better,

But not really. Looking in the mirror and feeling happy,

There are impossible things in this world.

The world around me taught me to think that way,

I’d rather not, but it’s habit.

It takes so long to break a habit and I can’t get away from it long enough to even try

I know what I do want, but whats are not whos.

I know what I should want, I know what I am told to want.

I try to step back and just

Enjoy life

Or whatever bullshit the happy-go-lucky bullshit crew who have never lived like I do turn out to make the quiet remain quiet.

But it’s not much of a life I’m living.

Am I really going to be just getting by for my entire life?

It’s that thought where I start to go down hill.

The simplification of the words does not an awake nation make.

But I don’t know why they aren’t

Don’t they feel like I do?

Yet they all quietly say

It’s just life

But it’s not, it’s entirely created by those who came before us,

It’s a fabrication.

Someone planned this. We live in a world with no gods whose faces we see but in those who came before us and

Wanted something

To create this

So why do we have to say okay?

But it doesn’t change that I can’t do anything about it.

I just think it.

That’s what I do.

And I’m not going to.