Elucidating Questions

The last time I saw you

I cried after.

Tried not to do it in front of you.

The past hurts.

In my mind he thinks he tried or that he actually cared

But I have trouble believing in this,

Despite the feeling.

It feels like it’s been so long,

And then I realise it has.

The last time I saw you my heart cried outloud,

Screamed for you

Longed for you

Like a fool really.

I regret feeling that way.

Last time I saw you it felt like the last time I would

But I so desperately didn’t want our last hello and goodbye

To end with me walking away,

And crying out of sight.