Elucidating Questions

I wanted him, but I was staring at you.

I would feel so alone and lost and I’d look

Where you were

Are

You never go far but I don’t know why I did.

Like a pulling sensation.

If I sit here and wait will you come?

No, I’ve done this almost every day this year.

I know the answer.

I sit here and wait, but no one is trying to find me.

Any new person,

I don’t think you understand,

Any new person is just an opportunity

For someone else to take everything I give and then leave.

I can sit and wait,

Please don’t make me talk to every stranger in hopes it’s you.

I could stay where I am for millennia

Where are you?

Don’t you want to sit with me and watch the ducks

Is anything I do worth it?

You’re still not here.

Nothing is worth it.

Even if there’s no where we belong

Can’t we belong together?

Are you waiting for a lightning strike?

All this time wasting away…

I’d have been more blessed born as a duck at this pond.

I miss you

But I don’t know what it feels like to be with you.

I wonder if we met and you decided I wasn’t worth it,

Just like everyone else who walked away.

Did you walk away?

I had a dream where that night went how I had wanted

It didn’t stop me from waking up.

The ducks play while I cry beside the pond.

Someone tell me why