Elucidating Questions

I cry so much these days,

If I’m not crying it hurts in my chest like it’s just

Waiting to bubble open.

I don’t want to, it just happens like a switch flicked and

You have no idea what’s happening behind my eyes as the tears fall

Are you fucking kidding me?

Suck it up.

Are you trying to guilt people into feeling sorry for you?

Anyone should be concerned

Because these days I don’t cry

Without laughter escaping.

Someone told me to keep breathing

Someones?

I laughed,

And then cried more.

Three chances to guess why.

I get so frustrated with myself.

I was so unused to being comforted when I cry

That when he put his arm around me I was startled.

He’s kind.

A good person.

I’m so humiliated.

I was trying to explain the situation,

But I couldn’t.

Because I’m just a fast food worker.