Elucidating Questions

Because Mars would be like my younger sister

Who always thought she was older than me for some reason

When she didn’t know I was always aware of those few so called short months between because I had to know

At the end of the day

Who was being held responsible for every action made

So Saturn like my brother who

I feel like we had such a bond and now he barely makes eye contact with me and I never understand why

And I

Then that feeling of the inevitable fall I know I won’t make the turn I won’t I

Paralysed myself with fear and

Down the hill into the earth

But that shock

Of hitting the ground and then

What is that sound it’s really weird is it a backfiring car?

Yes

I put off thoughts but I have to reach them eventually they don’t float away

Because I don’t either.

I just feel like I exist in three different ways all the time and it doesn’t quite

Match the world’s view of what I thought being human was

I hear one track mind

I have no idea what that means I can’t relate

Or remember relating

Too much ringing in my ears.

I don’t have to justify

I don’t know what but good to know I suppose

Scarlet rain and black rainbows.