Elucidating Questions

Even if it hurts

Even if I’m angry

Even if I want to be able to scream

Even if you don’t stand with me I stand with you.

Don’t know why.

It’s who I am.

I notice intricacies of human behaviour.

Because even though I want to turn and bite

It doesn’t change the foundation of the thing I’m biting and

It’s not there I can’t see it

Trust me I looked I can’t just believe

Things I have to search through and pick apart and put back together

And hear every note every word usage every

Because if I hear it I leave.

Capacity

And

Ability

We all have it our bodies acting as bodies could do it but

The soul

The spirit and the heart.

They’d all have to come into alignment for the action to be taken

Or ignored and I

Don’t see someone who could just ignore that,

Even if they could all ignore this I don’t think

I hate that word

Think

Like my brain doesn’t think it of course it does it thought it backwards and forwards and frontwards and upwards and everywhere

Every aspect.

I don’t see someone with a storm who would want to hurt someone else with it

I see

Someone who would mask the pain and put it into poetry

Which by the way

By the way

Would require intensely twisted thought

To think that

And then produce the opposite

It just doesn’t fit

I’m very specific for very specific reasons but regardless of my specifity

I still know when there’s a person who I can’t trust

Elsewise I wouldn’t hand it out so freely it’s just that humans over time

Over time

They aren’t always the same humans

But that doesn’t change the goodness inside of them it is a reaction to the environment and the friction of what they want and need versus others

Some people lack it

He doesn’t

So either I’m incredibly confused or

It’s all just some mistakes that weren’t mistakes in the moment

And a lie.