Elucidating Questions

I loved you from first sight but it was different.

I always love people it’s just how I was it happened by accident but I

Missed you.

I wonder if you don’t love me because I’m fat.

I wonder if you don’t love me because I’m sick

Because I’m poor. Just because.

But I missed you and maybe that’s what was different. I guess I’ll never… No, it’s so cold you just dropped it in the snow.

Like a pinecone falls off a tree.

Smack.

Disappointed in myself for failing again

Not a voice around who knows how I feel or cares about why.

All I do these days is cry.

I don’t even know where to go from here.

So completely shut out from closure and understanding and support.

No one has time for me you’re not the only one.

No one wants to help me you’re not the only one.

No one cares about what happens if I’m left alone you’re not the only one.

The only one who has to suffer through it is me,

This sound of silence.

It’s not enough to breathe.

Breathing just prolongs the unwanted ruse.

I sang it back, and I got too tired to continue.

Now I’m living it.

Everything you ever wrote.

Who knows why.

I don’t care anymore,

But I don’t believe anyone will ever love me enough to notice.

And that’s just one more excuse for you to never do anything about it.