Elucidating Questions

I was just standing there and they came up behind me and I listened passively trying not to hear a word they walked past me

She loved him it was beautiful

There was a cat at their heals as they walked by

You have a cat

I said but they didn’t hear.

They crossed the street I said

Do you know you have a cat?

They didn’t look back the cat kept following it was adorable.

What a beautiful moment.

I was trying not to think about the circle

I went back feeling unheard.

I went back feeling forgotten and it’s not his fault

I don’t know how to stop.

I second guess

Or I hope

For a second

Turn my back a firework goes off.

I wonder if that’s all I missed.

Would it have mattered if I went down to see them they wouldn’t have been there.

The word you’re looking for is attached

Grit my teeth and bear it.

The moon was behind the clouds

I realised I hadn’t been this high in so long

I still feel it

What a wonderful feeling this pride must be,

I feel it through a glass pane, like there’s walls around me pressing in and in,

But I flinch and I don’t feel anything inside,

There’s feeling outside,

Inside feels hollow and thin.

Remember to breathe.

When I cry, regardless of gender, it just makes other people angry.

I remember being yelled at for crying.

What’s the point in this?

I didn’t mention that?

I’m so tired it all just sounds like more and more.

Complete confusion, the entire time.

I’m so confused.

I’m so fucking confused.