Elucidating Questions

7:00 PM

Today

My work place.

If nothing happens to prove it before then then I’ll know

A crow flies in the night and cries. It flies around once,

Twice,

Cawing all the while,

Then fell silent again.

Trick of the light,

I mutter, to no one to everyone to the something I was just deep in conversation with that is now gone

I sat outside

I gave him everything for a night and he gave me nothing

The something that immediately flew into my ear.

I saw it and I thought it was so cute and I wanted to touch it

But then I saw you with one and now I don’t think I can watch that anymore

One by one the things I can do fall away to nothing

But I can’t let go because I’m afraid of what would happen if I did

What a mess.

What’s the point?

Stop telling me to stay awake and wake up and do this and that and making me see this and that like I can explain it

Fuck you

Silence follows,

Except the whiring and the spinning

I know exactly where I am, I know exactly what you keep telling me, I hear you loud and clear

Can you please

Please just save me from this so I can hate you if that’s what you want but please just

Everyone just ghosts me.

Over and over and over again.

I’m so tired of being a ghost

And I can’t handle this anymore.

Just make it stop.