Elucidating Questions

It wasn’t that I thought you owed me

I was just so desperate to see you even if it was only for one day

But then I realise that day would mean everything

And it would just end up with me wanting more

I’m selfish.

I’m sorry that one day alone wouldn’t be enough for me

But it’s not that you owe me it I just

Wanted to see you

And still do but it’s

So muddled and messy now. If everything reminds me of things that happened

The slippers were an accident.

But just that and I’m back to that moment where

At any moment

I didn’t know what followed but I wanted to believe I would meet you

Or I did,

Then I really did

But I still don’t know why.

It didn’t fix anything it made it so much worse.

My hand broke.

My finger broke for no reason.

New Year’s happened.

Why?