Elucidating Questions

Muddy.

Jerk.

I don’t know what to call you.

Well now I do but I don’t know why.

You’re the single most frustrating honest forgiving loving confusing vague direct

Something

And you said if I kept ignoring you you’d get louder

But I didn’t realise you meant shadows

And words

You know I can’t justify

As the monarch flies by and you lean back cross your arms raise a brow smirk slightly

Why wouldn’t I?

Well I can’t rightly answer that without making billions of lives seem inconsequential when every one of them is connected to everything

Now can I?

The hummingbird perches in the tree overhead

You call me a hypocrite.

Well yes but you see and I rather quite think that in terms of the case of the situation where there is that is to say something of a truth to that.

“That’s Trudeau” I mean he’s always in and out of here like that but

But…

You say only a human could seem so childish when discussing life and death.

I can’t argue with that.

A small child calls for her mother, she can’t see her but she can hear her and she doesn’t have object permanence yet because she’s too young so

Her mother only exists as a voice temporarily

Mama

A call answered.

Well I feel entirely chastised now and you snicker

And I faltered. But I still don’t know how to believe I am needed.

You ask why

But it should be clear.

Dear you

Hey you

I love you dick face

Skipped past before but whispered to

Now I have a conversation because he’s that easy to talk to.

A whirlwind of leafs in the breeze.

Because I never knew everyone was waiting on a dime.

And I never knew everyone was waiting for the line that meant they could back away slowly

Or shut the door

I never knew that everyone was waiting on a cue to turn and run away

Not to.

Because I thought everyone was like me and gave second chances, forgot how to count, and I believed supporting each other is what we should do and I

Never heard back from them,

So I can only come to the conclusion

And you say stop right there I am literally bigger than all of them combined and I have so many rings.

And these rocks you like so much

You don’t swear at me because you know I take it personally even though I swear for emphasis

And that

Yeah well fuck you and fuck you too

Is saved for a second glance at the first

Because it’s how we say I love you in Mercurian because it’s always said with malice and it’s always said with love.

Because we totally secretly hate each other.

Distracting. He’s shiny.

Our conversations only go on forever because I enjoy watching you get distracted

Then you laugh.

But,

I do like facts and those are facts, are they related?

Everything is connected.

Jerk.