Elucidating Questions

What do you want?

I’m trying not to hear it go away.

Even if you hide it I know the answer

Then it’s better if I deny the answer

It’s wrong for me to want and I’m not allowed to love and I’m not allowed to want and I

Can’t stand this song anymore because I hate the answer skip

B Team

I only just let myself admit that I missed him enough to let myself have that much of him

But there it goes stepping in where it’s not welcome and bringing him with it when I’m

Fucking trying not to answer

He didn’t like having it sung back

It’s my own fault

Can’t I please keep just him enough to feel like I haven’t lost everything

But it keeps threading itself in and I want to delete it all over again

I love you do you love me

I love you could you love me

I love you could you like me

I love you could you tolerate me

I love you could you…

Every love song’s about him and I can’t sing to him

Every song of longing points fingers or blame or I can’t do that

Every song of happiness says there’s someone beside you

Every song is just breaking it worse.

Please let me start again…