Elucidating Questions

I looked up at her with a sigh

What do you think?

The quiet no never gets any quieter.

It’s not quiet anymore, but what else do I do

I realise who the joke is on,

After a no one else has to live in my head,

And unsatisfactory ending.

After all he didn’t care,

And he still doesn’t care.

I try to let him go and drown in loneliness.

I don’t care how he treats me,

I hate that look on her face,

But I don’t care.

Because he’s still there when it’s convenient for him,

Which is all I really asked for anyways.

So he can use me as he will,

It doesn’t change what happens in my head every time.

I never said anything,

That’s only something I told the bull.

And no one else.

So no one else would know what happens,

Please tell me that was a lie.

One sided hell.