Elucidating Questions

You have all the brightness of the sun,

But you lack the moon in a way that puzzles the mind that wonders

About a wolf who doesn’t howl at the blue corn moon.

It’s overwhelming feeling thinking

I don’t feel shame for feeling I refuse

But

And so

And it just leads to

I hadn’t even considered a future where he wasn’t present in some way it hadn’t occurred to me that would be an option

That someone who is my sun and moon wouldn’t be a part of it.

But I don’t know how to work towards that much silence, I don’t know if I’m allowed to and even when it’s all for him it

Doesn’t change that I’m lonely enough to be desperate enough to give in.

But who could settle for the sun when the two make such a beautiful person who is still my everything.

Would I have to live every day knowing

But never really knowing

If I ever came as far as I feel I did.

And still feeling the weight, of this line,

In my very core.