Elucidating Questions

So I stand on this corner as three lights shine down and they walk by they all walk by

It doesn’t mean I can’t hear but it hurts to try like this.

It just does and the corner is still empty, there’s no one standing on it with me I can only

Wish it could be raining

I look where he could be, but he’s still not visible and that makes it harder

I know I get through it but it doesn’t make the pain now any better you say

It won’t last

But I’m in it right now and I need something I can’t even verbalise because there’s no word for it but I need it and it’s just

If I end up all by myself I don’t know what will happen so excuse me while I communicate with lights in the sky it’s all I have left

It’s all I have left my lifeline who could have been a butterfly eventually

Didn’t see me fall down.

How much do I give him before I don’t just have to get by?

But I wonder who has seen a god cry?

Don’t you see he runs himself ragged and it hurts?

I wonder.

Something comes up behind just to assure it’s not a goodbye.

It’s the only promise I need him to keep.

It’s all I need.

So much of it was me.

But I don’t know how it happened and the moments it aligns doesn’t change

This feeling like I’m just down here for some other reason.

How was I not thrown in?