Elucidating Questions

No one sees you like I do when you see the moon

He whispers

And I hear it I feel it

When my mind recoils

No one? Or No one would.

And I feel the stab of pain like,

Were my words not worth it and I wonder

If he is who he insists he is in this strange coincidental

I fell asleep feeling like there were hands in my hair and with Over Again stuck in my head in a way I couldn’t ignore.

But in the morning there was nothing left but disturbing empty dreams.

And the memory of a dream where we sat together and talked for hours

But I can’t remember what about.

I don’t think I should think there’s anything good about me seeing the moon so I try to distance myself from it like a thought

It must have been a thought but it starts getting

So heavy

And I feel this pain in my back like I wish it could just stop so I

Turn back to the feeling,

It’s a feeling but,

I’m still alone here.

To the eyes of anyone looking.

He said,

Giving love to others when you don’t have love for yourself

Will make it harder to love yourself,

Because you will feel desperate to feel loved,

And so every love spent that doesn’t get returned will just

Make the hole bigger

And you’re still picking yourself apart.