Elucidating Questions

I let it win so many times,

Like a gun firing no matter how my common sense

Screamed stop.

Screamed don’t do it.

Screamed you’ll end up hurting yourself.

I let it win and fell hopelessly,

And when I looked up she was there to greet me so I thought

That’s how it must be and I tried helplessly

But it kept washing it away like if the moment felt like it was right it must be so I

Fired away.

And didn’t realise all I was firing was shots that would be returned not in the condition I ment to send them in

Instead every one would come back to haunt me because

He’s right, of course he is,

That no one would know what to do with me.

That upon receipt it would never turn out.

I can’t let it win anymore,

I can’t let it show.

It’s not safe to let anyone know.

Inside it hurts like the hole just grows bigger but

I can pretend in the face of anyone.

I can’t fall again, I can’t let it happen.

I’ll just end up with a head full of hurt and a heart full of holes.

This is what you get when you let your heart win.