Elucidating Questions

When we burnt it down, lit it from both ends,

We weren’t trying to hide evidence or our face we

Didn’t want to be ignored anymore

So tired of I told you so

When we always hated I told you so.

There are things we now miss because those were our map.

We deleted our map.

We learnt that people are not the best to be trusted with your darkside

Especially when they don’t speak the same internal language

We know what speechless sounds like

We know what silence tastes like.

It’s still on my tongue, the words unsaid because no one said

And now I know what I wanted to hear, from go from start from where do we start?

All I want to hear is,

I don’t blame you.

Because that’s all I ever say to anyone.

Because I always blame myself.

Because once upon a time I was a small child and daddy told me

It was always my fault.

They think I am calling myself the victim, as I separate and stare out into nothing

What I’m whispering to myself

Is I blame me. I blame me I blame me I blame me

I

I wanted to hear someone say, I don’t blame you

So maybe I could try to do the same.

Hey, I wasn’t trying to blame you I was trying to say I was hurting.

Hey, I don’t blame you.

Do you blame me?