Elucidating Questions

Trying to believe that something good was coming, it was coming any second.

You get what you need.

You don’t get what you want.

I thought it was true,

But it was never true.

You don’t get what you need, they watch and judge you and kick you out and leave you with nothing and continue to watch

If I could truly get what I need, what I need now that I have nothing left

I wouldn’t have to wake up anymore.

But here I am.

I woke up in hell again.

Everything is the same.

I want to go to sleep.

I wish I could close my eyes and sleep.

That’s what I wanted.

Tried to make it go away but it’s here every day

And the sentence for expressing is the pressing continuing silence and solitude.

Never feel.

I learned to never trust face to face how to feel with anyone they will

Spit it back at you as the cruelty you already saved for yourself.

I don’t want to be ignored

But it’s all I get.

So, if all I get is ignored

And you get what you need,

I know what I need,

But I can’t find a way out.

I dreamt I was in the forest,

Away from the places I could be found.

I dreamt of someone who wanted to talk to me,

But that same person doesn’t exist.

They all want something when I open my eyes.

I don’t want anything but connection,

But they cut me out, I’m just a loser when I open my eyes,

And if you get what you need,

I just need some time to give everyone what they want.