Elucidating Questions

An unbottled cork of a message in the ocean where the letter was lost and the ink washed away by water that fell

One drop one drop one drop.

The welcoming home to think in a box of a place where there’s a person and it’s all just people

And they’re all just waiting to turn away, waiting for a reason to leave.

Never wanting a reason to believe in, five billion reasons to believe erased in the never ending stupidity of believing

The truth of hearing what happens tomorrow and please tell us, but don’t tell us what to do

Does this not make sense to you?

Rules reset every night and you get nothing because your silent nothing and trying nothing and it’s still nothing

And no interest in what’s coming, it probably all says the same thing

It’s your fault and I will never.

Or my life is hell and it’s your fault and I will never.

Or you’re crazy before I even asked if I could be a friend and I will never.

Or give me what I want and then you’ll get what you want without telling what the want is or how someone from far far far beneath you should somehow come up with it

Because there’s a bad guy and I always get forced into it.

Regardless of not believing in it, regardless of hating the boxes it makes and

Just say you’re mine

But I did

And it never mattered.

Just say yes

But I did

And it never got better.

Just say enough

But I did.

And all I ever hear is shut up or hush or quiet like it is something I can control trying to keep together when the only place to go is under.

And it’ll just be one more day, one more day, one more day, every day

Why don’t you try again tomorrow?

Why don’t you stop telling me to try and get off your cowardly high fucking horse and treat me like a human being rather than whatever the fuck you cooked up

I never would have let you suffer alone like this,

And yet here I am.

Yet the imbalance is my fault. Is it fun for you?

While I end up with less and less and less and less and shut down every system and every thing that ever put a smile on my face is suddenly

Because I gave everything

And when I had nothing left you showed me nothing and asked for more.