Elucidating Questions

It’s an interesting opposite. If there was one to visit, if there was one who wanted me,

If there was someone to thank and someone to hold on to, if there was a thank you that mattered or if feelings had merit

Sending love to people I don’t know,

Why other than to know they should be remembered more.

Being forgotten, fading away, there are more so if one is gone who cares?

A day to remember that somebody made you, to remember that somebody didn’t really want you,

To remember that there is someone to pick up what is left behind, to remember that that’s all its ever been.

Must have done something terrible to deserve this lifetime.

Perhaps only apologies for the rest of time.

So when time dies and trying not to remember the depth of the wounds of

I don’t have one

Regardless if it’s disrespectful when no one has any clue,

Thank you for years where I took care of them in your stead,

And now I’m nothing.