Elucidating Questions

Thank you

I whispered to the breeze

She breathed back

Ahshwei

Or how to spell it

Did it know my name

Or a silent stolen voice

A whisper from a language fleeting

In the wind

But it also seemed to mean thank you

And she stays with me

Tugging my hair and kissing my face

And she seems to attached to the mystery of the seasons and their

Weather

How could it become so complacent of a word?

When it all works so separate so intricate so linked in many ways

But the sun was too hot

I’m walking out of my comfort zone into the unknown of a springless Summer

Around the young trees sung back to sleep not heeding the warning whispered

Those waiting pause for applause

And send out the beginning of a spring

But the sun will be too hot for the blooms

So their short life becomes shorter as we experience

So many naïve trees shooting the breeze too early and facing the consequences

Of limp white petals

Placid with leaves slightly brown as they missed their chance to wake

From firing too early

Yes I feel her still settled around my knees the breeze

Passing a fleeting touch

They haven’t woken up

So they can’t keep you cool either

Singing

Don’t love nobody but nobody loves me

Kingdom Hearts

Hey do you hear me?

No

On these nights so weary

Say

Aren’t you lucky?

Are you lucky now?

You don’t hear me

Hear me now

This madness is something you don’t know

All the long nights all alone

Hey

I can’t hear

Nevermore

Doth the Raven crow

Here we vow

This is it

Say it with no sound

The song of the hawk

Away

It’s just trapped in my heart on repeat while repeating the reasons it will never be why they’re better than me why I can’t live for free

I just want to live

That’s all I want but it never works

No matter how hard I try nothing quite goes how it could

Nothing ever works nothing quite fits

There’s no click that makes it stay no attachment to the day no interest they say in anything but

It’s so hard to enjoy when there’s no way to enjoy because every second is filled wondering what to do next

Every time everyone acts like it’s no big deal but it’s a big fucking deal and I’m so fucking close to getting screwed every time

I bet everyone thinks I’m over exaggerating

Fuck

It’s hard to watch

Him smile as I have a crossing thought

It’s hard to see as I recoil from me

How I want to love him how unloved is me

Haunted day wise

Daymares ticking

Tricking how the emotion could be expressed

Killing the options and the feeling alive

Within the dead I cannot survive

How to find a tale untold

When I feel this pulling tide

Beyond the emptiness I feel

What one part of this could be real

How do you find yourself repeating things you didn’t do and it would have been almost right too

There’s no madness in blue clear eyes sapphire like diamond like crystal clear

True there is no reason for the lost to be evoked

Within this flame unheard unspoke

Spoken in reverse

Without a beautiful verse

Met a dog named Apollo

One dog

Eleven dogs

So what does it mean

Probably nothing

But then

Mr Brightside

And Don’t You Forget About Me

And all that

Somehow managed to miss him in between who am I?

I know somewhere beyond your frozen heart

Is somebody trapped out in the dark

And maybe there’s a room inside your soul

But all I seem to find there is a hole

How can you not hear what I say

How could you go so far away

Yet somehow through this endless strange unknown

Maybe you could find yourself a home

Don’t you want to go outside your doors?

Is there any truth inside the sores?

Without ever finding what a sought

I’m still fleeting floating all through thought

Not a single thought inside my head

Isn’t filled with worry or with dread

Where do we go from here?

Where do we put last year?

How can I finally pull apart

These disfigured pieces of my heart?