Poetry
This is the general category of fuckery that goes on and on and doesn’t seem interested in stopping.
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Met a dog named Apollo
One dog
Eleven dogs
So what does it mean
Probably nothing
But then
Mr Brightside
And Don’t You Forget About Me
And all that
Somehow managed to miss him in between who am I?
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I know somewhere beyond your frozen heart
Is somebody trapped out in the dark
And maybe there’s a room inside your soul
But all I seem to find there is a hole
How can you not hear what I say
How could you go so far away
Yet somehow through this endless strange unknown
Maybe you could find yourself a home
Don’t you want to go outside your doors?
Is there any truth inside the sores?
Without ever finding what a sought
I’m still fleeting floating all through thought
Not a single thought inside my head
Isn’t filled with worry or with dread
Where do we go from here?
Where do we put last year?
How can I finally pull apart
These disfigured pieces of my heart?
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I didn’t notice
気付かなかった
That he had made an album that sounded just like for me
With memories of him
Inspired by Queen and Disney
Stand out fit in
And change as well
Across the world
An orange light was working away
Collaborative works with Mike and Kiiara
Trying to find themselves trying to find a happy between all the
All the awful
And all the trouble
I shouldn’t be surprised
I get to see his eyes for the first time in a week
I can finally know his soul
Even though I’ll never know
Somewhere across the world
Without ever hearing a word
He heard me
What’s your excuse again?
No, I’m sorry, what was your excuse again?
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My favourite horned angel
来週ね?
うん来週。
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The chains on my heart tighten as I see you in a stranger’s face on the street
Knowing I’ll never see you
Knowing I’ll never meet you.
The chains on my heart tighten when you call my name silently
And I know I’ll never hear your voice again as I haven’t heard it before
Switching to far away where he’s putting on a show
Thinking on repeat
It’s the same you know
I don’t know how I live without you
I don’t know how I’ll live without him
But then again I’m not living
And I haven’t lived in so long
I feel like a dead person shuffling
Existing but never living
Surviving but never alive
Only the lonely survive
The living aren’t lonely
And surviving isn’t worth it
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No it’s fine I get it
No it’s fine I get it
No it’s fine I get it
I ask three times and then know the score
If you wanted to see me you would
But you won’t
End of story
End of story for everyone I know
End of story
So I’m going to exist all alone
At least I have weed to keep me company
At least I’ll have weed to keep me company
Sometimes I see people talking
And I feel so jealous
I never used to feel this ugly emotion
But I’m ugly so it suits me
I always get to watch people be together
I wish I remembered what that felt like
I always get to see people laughing and having fun together
I wish I remembered what that felt like
I wish I had a friend
I just needed a friend
All I wanted was a friend
Day 439
There’s still no one here
No one wants to see me
No one ever calls
No one misses me
I’m all alone
And no one is coming to save me
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I know what I stand for
Puppies
All puppies
And also kittens
All kittens
Just generally critters.
So much joy in having these companions near.
So much frustration in those who don’t understand them.
I’m trying not to think of this night when I won’t see him again
How do you throw yourself into working part time and not making enough to live
I have two choices
Think of him him him him
Or think of how rent is due in two weeks and I’m not going to get there
How to deal with guilt both ways
If only there was something I could do which could erase all the problems
All the problems
How I wish there was a solution
How I love him
But I’ll give it to the critters
I’ll love them instead of him
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